Sunday, May 29, 2011

3 months...

My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms
Again
I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand the
emptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
I am flying
Lord I am flying
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Again
I have come to you in search of faith
Cause I can’t see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I’ll leave it in Your hands


May 28,2011
Happy 3 months in Heaven sweet Hadley.  
We miss you more than these words can say. 
In Christ's Love,


2 comments:

Laura said...

I am looking at Natalie in her swing right now kicking and cooing and I can't imagine the pain that have felt for these past three months. Everytime I read your blog I send so many prayers up to heaven for you and Daniel and Briley. You truly are so inspiring and have made me realize what a precious gift I have in my life...even when she wakes me up at 6:15 on Memorial Day.

Anonymous said...

Even though we do not know each other, I can relate to the pain of your loss and the journey He has placed you on. My journey has spanned 5 years and the testimony is amazing as to God's love and the reward of allowing Him to take FULL control of my life. I have a wonderful little boy (9) 4 Heavenly Children (2 boys, 1 I will find out in heaven and 1 sweet girl) being raised by our Father and now the most precious gift of a little girl who is 11 months. I have been reading your blog for the past few months with tears remembering the battle of sadness for the loss and being a good mother to my sweet, and patient, little boy. I am praying for you and your family...I know the words do not make anything easier, but I am praying for your next gift!!