Happyache

Hadley,   I'm happyache.   I'm happy because Delaney is here, alive, and healthy.   I ache for you...you aren't here.   I'm happy because I know you are alive with HIM.   I ache for a 4 year old, 2 year old, and a 2 month old.   I'm happy for a safe pregnancy with Delaney.   I ache for knowing why not for you?   I'm happy that Briley is finally getting to experience being a big sister.   I ache because you made her a big sister first.   I'm happy for every precious day with your sisters.   I ache for the days here on earth I will never get with you.   I'm happy for every new smile, coo, and laugh.   I ache to see you smile, coo, and laugh.   I'm happy that my arms don't feel so empty.   I ache for you to be in them.   I'm happy that God is mending my broken heart.   I ache for the day it is completely healed.   I'm happy that God allowed me to carry you for 160 days.   I ache for the 938 days I've missed.   I'm happy God can turn weeping at night to JOY in the morning.   I ache to see your face.   I'm happy I was able to kiss it.   I'm happy you will always be watching over your sisters.   I ache that you went before me.   I'm happy your Daddy is the best girl Daddy ever.   I ache to see him be a Daddy to you.   I'm happy you changed me.   I ache because I'm happy.   I'm happyache.   Hadley I miss you...   Love, Mommy