Tuesday, February 28, 2012

12 months

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray...
 Bring me joy, bring me peace
 Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
 I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray...
Bring me joy, bring me peace
 Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
 Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

12 months in Heaven
February 28, 2012
Happy 1 year birthday sweet girl...we love you so much Hadley D'Layne!!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

A Heavenly Birthday Party

It was a beautiful day to celebrate a beautiful little girl in Heaven.

Here are a few pictures that our amazing photographer and very good friend, Amanda, took.  More pictures to come in another post of course!!

We are so blessed with family and friends who love us and love our sweet Hadley.

We are so blessed with a God who loves us and Hadley even more...


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Tuesday, February 21, 2012


I never posted about my birthday (on 1-25) and I want to make sure and remember what a great 29th birthday it was!!

So on my birthday I...

Received pretty flowers at work from my hubby and my brother!!

Had a lunch date with the two most important people in my life :)

Had a special birthday cake made by the sweetest little girl I know!!

This handsome guy bought me my first pair of "real" cowgirl boots!! (pictured below)
 Aren't they cute??
We also had a yummy dinner and enjoyed my birthday cake when we came home.

I had a wonderful birthday.  It was hard to say goodbye to 28.  That number is so special to me and it's not a coincidence that I was 28 when Hadley was born, that she was born on the 28th, that her due date was June 28th...I could go on and on.  28 was a year of my life that I will absolutely never forget.  I was blessed last year and I know God has many blessings in store for my 29th year :)  Can't wait to see what they are!!
 How can I not be thankful when this is who I get to share my birthdays with?!?

Monday, February 20, 2012

Marker, Mistake, and Meaning

Well, Hadley's marker is finally here...and there is a mistake on it.
I have been anxious for the past month about it getting here in time for her birthday and when I saw it today and there was a mistake on it I pretty much lost it.  Well, not pretty much, I did lose it.

Her middle name is spelled wrong.  Yea, it's a big mistake.  I hate that I let that mistake consume me when I saw it for the first time and wasn't able to see how absolutely beautiful it turned out.  I left Daniel and Briley there and had to get away.  I was so frustrated.  Daniel was of course amazing like he always is in my times of "craziness" and he let me be.  We drove up to the office to talk to them and fortunately for us they are going to take care of it.  I'm not really concerned about how a mistake like this happened.  I honestly wasn't even mad at Bluebonnet.  I was so incredibly disgusted with myself.  This was the one thing I wanted to be perfect for her and it's not.  All of these feelings of not being able to protect her came flooding back.  I felt that in the days after she passed asking myself over and over, why couldn't my body take care of her...my one job?  I felt that again today.  Why didn't I check the proof one more time...my one job?  I texted my sister-in-law right away while Daniel was inside and she helped calmed me down.  She was angry at Bluebonnet, I was angry at myself, we were just plain ol' angry and it felt good to have someone be angry with me :)

After Daniel had talked to the office staff we went back to look at it again.  It really turned out absolutely beautiful...just like her.  Daniel reassured me that it's no one's fault and things like this happen.  Of course the inevitable, WHY??? came out of me.  Why didn't we check the proof better?  Why did God let them make it wrong when he knew how important this was to us?
Daniel's answer is what he has said to me since his Mom got sick.  
I don't know why it's happening to us.
We can't change it.
Don't let it consume you.
Be thankful for the blessings you have.    
It's so simple and so true. 
Hadley doesn't care one bit that her middle name is spelled wrong.  It really got me thinking about the true meaning of her marker.  I want people to look at it and remember what a precious gift she was to our family.  I want people to look at it and it bring them peace to think of Jesus holding our Hadley.  I want people to look at it and thank God that he gave us Hadley even for a short time.  More importantly I want you to look at it and thank God for His Son.

Without him I wouldn't have eternal life with our Hadley.  
Mistake...nope.  There are no mistakes in God's perfect plan.  Her marker will be fixed and my heart will be too.  
I long for the day...

Enjoy the pictures of her "perfect" marker :)
It's beautiful isn't it??

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Lots of Love...

Updating the blog has been put on the back burner lately and I realized it was time to catch up!!

A couple weekends ago Briley and Daniel went on their 2nd Daddy/Daughter date night for Valentine's Day.  You can read about their first one here.  I got Briley all dressed up for her Daddy and she was LOVING her tutu!!
Isn't their souvenir so cute?  I love having a husband that wants to already show his daughter how she should be treated and loved by a man.  She is a lucky little girl!!

The weekend before Valentine's Day my sweet husband surprised me with my very own date night :)  He took me to my favorite mexican restaurant downtown and he even suffered through the latest chick flick, "The Vow"!  He made my early Valentine's Day perfect!!

Our Valentine's Day was jam packed with a school party, sock hop, lots of fun gifts, yummy desserts, dinner with family, and visiting Nonnie and Hadley!!
{made for her Daddy}
 {opening gifts from her favorite people}
 {my present to Daniel via pinterest!!}
{Briley's presents from us!!}
 {her Valentine holder from her Uncle Andrew}
{excited about her cupcake and presents}
{LOVE her}
{My 3 Valentine's!!}
{My sweet family}

Do you like the blog makeover?  I did it myself and I'm pretty proud of it :)  The colors remind me of Hadley and spring time.
In Christ's Love,