Tuesday, April 19, 2011


The other day I was reading one of my favorite blogs, Katie's Keepers, and she was praying to God about being homesick for Heaven and her little girl, Reese. 

I can't find words to put it any better.

I am absolutely and completely homesick for Heaven.  

I remember arriving in San Marcos, to attend Southwest Texas State University for my freshman year of college, and feeling my first bit of homesickness ever.  I had never really been away from my family for more than a night and I remember missing my Mom so much that I didn't think I could stand it and literally thought about driving home in the middle of the night my first night there!!  Luckily, I did make it through my first year, though later decided that a college 45 min from home might be a better choice for my sophomore year :)

The homesick feeling I have now is exactly what I felt then, just multiplied times a million.  It might be difficult for some to understand how I can be homesick for a place I have never been to.  That's easy to explain.  My daughter is there and I can't help be homesick for a place that my Jesus Reigns.

So, being a Mom and a kindergarten teacher, this precious scene from Finding Nemo came to my mind...

**You may have to turn it up to hear better

Lucky for me, my homesick feeling is comforted by the blessings He has given to me in my life.  Daniel, Briley, our future children, my family, my friends...they bring me a sense of peace and joy for my life here on earth without Hadley. 

"But, when I look and think of you Hadley, I'm home.  I don't want that to go away...I don't want to forget. " 

When He calls me home I won't be homesick anymore.  

Heavenly Father, I am simply homesick tonight.  I'm homesick for what is to come.  But I know your plan is perfect and am so thankful for what you have given me.  I know my pain is in your hands and you are protecting my heart more than anyone else can.  I am trusting in you now and will continue to trust in you forever.  What a wonderful reunion we all have to look forward to when we finally make it home.  Amen.

In Christ's Love,

1 comment:

The Anglin Family said...

I know that feeling all too well..my daughter Ryan Elizabeth was born sleeping in November 2010. I found your blog on Faces of Loss. Big Hugs and lots of prayers!!