It has been 5 weeks since Hadley went to Heaven.
After reading this quote, I thought about Joy.
"Oh sweet Hadley, do you know how much Joy you brought to this world?"
She knows how much we love her.
She knows how much Jesus loves her.
She knows that she changed my life for the better.
This is my last week at home with Briley and Daniel. On Friday, I will go for a half day at school and then officially start Monday with my class.
I'm nervous, scared, excited, etc. to start back working.
I'm nervous to leave Daniel and Briley. I will miss them so much and this time at home with them has been precious to me. JOY.
I'm scared to hear what my kids might ask about Hadley. I know God will give me the right answers to their questions and I feel like it will help in my healing. JOY.
I'm scared that going back to work means starting "real" life again. Real life starting back means time that has passed since I held my sweet Hadley. JOY.
I'm scared that I won't have time to write. Writing has become my saving grace and outlet during this. I love to write about her. JOY.
Hadley is bringing JOY to my shadows, fears, and reservations.
Hadley is my eternal JOY.
I want to leave you with a question today...
Are you always striving to find Joy in the shadows?
It is a hard thing to do here on earth. Sometimes it takes looking in that dark and scary corner you never thought of. For the rest of my life I will strive to look for Joy in the shadows.
Because of Him and because of Hadley.
He has given us Joy as a gift...why not take it?
In Christ's Love,